Broken...

This is like seeing something beautiful, you think wow how lovely, then you go to touch it and your hand scratches just below the surface and you pull away suddenly, shocked and disgusted that it was rotten on the inside. Am I describing myself? My addiction? I dont even know, I just know that right now I feel broken. Like a piece of once fragile glass that was reinforced and strengthened but someone extremely powerful managed to smash it anyways, jeez that one sums it up!!